chup kyon ho..............

Zara sa paas aao to kahun tumse
kaandhe pe sir ko jhukao to kahun tumse,

Baras ke baadlo sa chale jaate ho
Kabhi shabnam ki tarah mujh mein theher jao to kahun tumse,

Yu to aankho se nikal aatey hain aansu aksar
Khawab ban kar ke sama jao to kahun tumse,

Mujhko maloom hai paana nahi mumkin tumko
Do kadam saath badhao to kahun tumse....

Dead Or Alive

Sitting alone in my room, I am feeling as if I am transferred to some alien world,
Thinking about the past days, hovering in thoughts, pondering over again and again, in this busy thinking I heard a sound.

Loud, Ferocious, Painful and agonizing came knocking to my ears, I stood up, ran towards the window, looking out , I was aghast to see the silent street which was buzzing aloud when I entered my room.

My eyes started searching for the cause behind the scream and the silence that over powered a crowd.My sight reached to the street aah! A voice in despair struck to my ears, what I saw after that was horrible, a charred body, lying on the surface of the earth,facing towards the sky,blood spilled all over,bathed in dust, I closed my eyes thinking who he could be? I was trembling on my feet, a shiver reached to the spines and I stood up collecting all the courage I could.

I took few steps towards the door and stopped, a thoughtful look around, as I felt someone behind, nothing was there except my shadow, it was empty as ever, I shook every thought of fear and opened the door,gradually moved on the stairs, a slow walk on the stairs reached at an astounding pace, hurriedly crossed the road, In that fearful situation I forget to bring my spectacles, I reached near the dead man, who was bathed in dust and blood all over his body, I stood there for sometime in fear, numb and silent.

I was afraid to see his face, a deep breath to overcome that fear but unable to do so. I was coping with the scary feeling, reached down,knelt down, I was close to his face a breeze of pain and disgust blew my presence, it was hazy all around, the evening has enveloped whole surrounding, I felt the darkness deep down in my heart it started pounding and pouncing to mouth, shrinking in fear i was trying to shake it away, I sat down pushed myself close, my hands started moving on his face, cleaning the dust and blood , The moment was horrifying,again and again my eyes move around for a human face, nothing was there,the whole area was deserted, it was in deep silent, and that gave a fearful thought.

I look back once more moving my hand on the lying person’s face, then I felt as it was clean I turned to see him, nooooooooo a cry raised deep down and went dead before reaching my mouth, my eyes seemed ogling on the face in shock, went traumatized, I felt lump in the throat, tried to scream but it dies within the heart and i felt i am dead.

Oh No!! Oh God!! Aah!!

In disbelief, shocked, traumatized I woke up from my dreams, soaked in sweat and tears; I sat down holding my head, few minutes of heavy breath and then I look towards the sky from the open window, thanking Almighty, it was a dream where I was engulfed by the darkness of death,when i opened my eyes i felt the light of life in Me, i was still Alive.

An Extremist’s Diary

When I laughed uncontrollably over the play of life, they said,” I am extreme”.

When I cried over the ugly and pathetic days, I was asked not be on extreme.

I loved her, wished her, believed and took the plunge and she whispered don’t do extremes.

They betrayed me, the innocence used my gullible nature and I felt the pang of disloyalty and it was the extreme.

I chose to talk about humanity, I went on talking and they reiterated, as I am an extremist.

Everything I tried, to be on truth, with logics, analysis and interpretations under the lights of life, the voices went louder to call me an extremist.

I am an extremist, I want to be like this to bring the truth on everyone’s face, if u say this is extreme, this is because truth is bitter and world around me want to be better disregarding their truth, I am sorry, I am on extreme.

I won’t exaggerate things in me to fit in this world rather would love to say what is right,on your face.

They talk about hypocrisy in BOLD letters but they are the biggest hypocrites, they masquerade their own self which they carry in the depth and at times they turn a bolt face, isn’t we call it hypocrisy.

Do hell with the world and do hell with their masked faces and i will keep on saying and singing the Truth of You and Me.

LoVe LuSt & DeSiRe

Once again I came to hear
The whisper you made in my ears,
The days of delight and nights we collide
Twinkle of your eyes mixed with your smile,

I remember those moves that left me glued
You lean over me and get me seduced
Echoes of your giggles were like sounds of jingles
Running of the fingers and my caress to your nipples,

You gasping for breath while sucking the lips
Moaning and groaning in the silence of night
You held me tight and lead me to the dice
I get myself sinking in the emotions that were bracing,

You opened your legs and members got red
A push and it slid, your eyes flicked
The voices get hoarse with the thrusts in the dark
Bodies were rolling like the serpents crawling,

The motions get hard with the lightening and sparks
Your thrusting butts and my blazing flesh
In the silent of the night it was the lyrics of life
Before we came we were wet in that rain,

You cried in the pain it was ecstasy goddamn
I was drowning in you in the night that was true
Aghast and tired we separated after the fire
You looked in my eyes and gave a smile

That night of desire when two hearts were on fire
Still I admire your ways of ruling my heart’s empire
That night has gone but I remember the song
It’s coming on my way and leaves me at Bay.

Was that Insanity or a road to Eternity?

YaAdeEiN

Tu mujhse judaa main tujhse judaa
Tum yaad mujhe karte hoge aur khwaab mere bunte hogey,

Pehle ki tarah shayad ab bhi Tasweer meri rakhte hogey
Aksar ki duao mein ab bhi merey liye tum kehte hogey,

Khush rehney ki shayad ab bhi tambeeh mujhe kartey hogey
Aur der talak un raston par tanha tanha chalte hogey,

Gumnaam andhero mein ab to sapno ki kabar ban jaati hai
Suraj ki kirno se ab rooh meri jal jaati hai,

Phir sochta hoon shayad tum bhi kuch khoye se rehte hogey
Duniya ki is bheed mein aksar ghum ho kar rehte hogey,

Shayad un lamho ki yaadein kaanto si chubhti hongi
Phir bhulne ki khaatir unko tum khud se sauda karte hogey,

Har shaam main tanhaa rehta hoon,rasto ko main takta hoon
Kuch hosh nahi hai mujhko bhi main main kyon ab aisa rehta hoon.

BaAzAR

Bahut sochne ke baad maine yeh topic chuna,kuch likhne ke liye,apne ehsaas jo sirf merey hain,yeh soch jo meri subah o shaam mein shaamil hain.
Duniya ek bazaar hi to hai,jahan kabhi pyaar bikta hai chand ehsaaso ke badle,jahan insan ka jism bikta hai uske apne kuch jazbaato ke liye,jahan khareedne wala bhi dukhi hai aur bechne wala bhi lekin is mandi mein sab jayaz hai kyon ki yahan koi bechta hai apni marzi se to koi bikta hai khudgarzi se.
Kuch aisi hi duniya se main lauta hoon,jahan ehsaaso ki kadar nahi,laut aaya hoon main wahan se jahan kabhi merey dil mein tamannao ke kuch khwab roshan hue the aur phir ek pal mein woh sheeshe ki tarah toot kar bikhar gaye.
Aaj koi apni khushiya manaa raah hoga magar yahan koi insaan veerani mein apni siskiyo ki sadaayein sun raha hai, jahan kabhi khushfaham dil ke andar athkheliya karti mohabbat apni banho ki jakdan ka ehsaas karati thi aur main chup chap us raah ki taraf bahdta jaa raha tha,maine socha nahi tha ki kabhi palat kar mujhe wapas dekhna hoga un beetey lamho ki taraf jo sach hai ya jhoot sochte sochte din aur raat kaanto ki tarah chubhte hue kat jaate hai.

kehna bahut aasan hai ki in baato ko bhul kar aagey badha jaaye,kahan aagey? kis raaste? jab har raasta un purani baato aur yaado ki taraf mud jaata hai,ab insaan kis par yaqeen karey? kis haath ko thaam kar badhe ya kis insaan ka bharosa karey,zindagi akele kab talak..jab ki mujhko bhi pataa hai gaya waqt waapas nahi aata,guzare lamhein phir nahi aayenge magar woh nashtar ban kar dil ke andar har ehsaas ko kat ta hai.
Ek nasoor sa ban kar andar hi andar zehar ki tarah failta jaa raha hai,main kaat kar nikalna ki koshish karta hoon magar yeh apne pair pasarta chala jaata hai aur ek din mujhko bhi pataa hai yeh mere jism mein fail jaayega aur main.............bebus is ke haatho maut ki neend sula diya jaoonga........Ek guzara bhayanak kal merey aaney wale kal ko andhero mein dhakel chuka hai....

Tujhey khabar nahi shayad ki khalwaton mein meri......
lahu ugalti hui zindagi karahati hai,

Tujhey khabar nahi shayad ki main wahan hu jahan.....
yeah fun nahi hai aziyat hai zindagi bhar ki.

KaiSe KaHu

Kuch kehna hai shayad mujhko tumse,kaise kahoon?? kehna to chahta hoon bahut kuch,magar chup ho jaata hoon ki kahin meri baat ka tumahare pass agar jawab na hua to......!! ruk jaata hoon,theher jaata hoon,paani ke bulbule ki tarah phoot jaata hoon,aur kahin paani mein kho jaata hoon...kyon hai aisa,jab ki mujhko bhi pataa hai ki tum yeh jaanti ho,dil mein machalti hui hasrat ko samjhti ho,phir merey lub mera saath kyon nahi detey? kyon chubhta hai har lamha,kyon intezaar karta hoon main har pal,tumhare saath ka,chand lamho ka hi sahi par kyon,jab ki mujhko bhi pataa hai,baarish ki boond ki tarah,bansuri ki dhun ki tarah yeh lamha bhi kho jaayega..kya mujhe darr lagta hai us lamhey ko khone ka? nahi main to hazaar aise lamho ka kahwab sajaaye baitha hoon,tum mein khud ko sanjone ki hasrat liye takta hoon,tum chali jaogi yeh jaanta hoon par sanbhaal ke kahin chupaana chahta hoon..yeh dard aisa kyon hai..mujh mein shaamil bhi tu hai aur mujh me kahin hai bhi nahi,phir yeh veerani kyon hai,jab ki andhero se to mera barso ka waasta raha hai,aaj inse mujhe darr sa kyon lag raha hai,chalte chalte main ruk jaata hoon,thodi der thehrta hoon phir khud se baatein karne lagta hoon,kiska saaya hai hai,jo merey peeche peeche door tak chala aata hai,murat ban jata hoon,bus kuch keh nahi paata,kahada ho kar khayalo ki duniya mein kuch tasawwurat liye kahin door tak jaata hoon...Par kya hai ??

Rimjhim barasti baarish ki boond ya merey aansuo mein nahaya yeh mera apna Jism??